I guess this is the point where I say hello and introduce myself right? How very formal. My name is Kimberley, but most people call me Kim. Except my mum when she is talking to strangers about me. I think using my full name makes her feel a sense of pride and like I’m much more important than I actually am. You will be hearing a lot about my mum here. She provides me with daily entertainment and things I call Bevisms. She is a lovely woman with a heart of gold, but I do laugh at her and her little ways. My friends think she is hilarious but she is really just being herself!

So who am I? Well… I am a (nearly) 30 year old teaching assistant from a small town called St Helens. I will soon live with my best friend Jakki, you will hear a lot about her too, and my dog Simba. I work, read, drink coffee, watch YouTube videos, listen to music and try to go to the gym. Well that last bit might be a bit of a fib. I don’t try to go, I go when my friend, who by the way is a goddess, asks me to go and I feel guilty for saying no.

I can’t tell you the actual reason I have started a blog because I don’t actually know it. I guess it’s just a few little things that when I have put them together has led me here. Firstly I am turning 30. People keep telling me it’s just a number. Well yes it is a number but there is no just about it. I am going to be 30 years old and at the minute I really don’t want to be. I’m clutching on to the last couple of months of my 20’s for dear life. Will anything change? Well probably not, but I’m still not looking forward to it. There are a few reasons why and I’ll explain later in the blog about that but I’m not going into my thirties lightly I can tell you.

Another reason I am blogging is purely for the fact that I love to read. I love to read books, articles from magazines, reviews on films and of course all about other people’s lives. This blog is for me. Something to read that’s about me and my life. I can get lost in a book or a piece of text and I can do it all from the comfort of my own home. I have very recently got into Vlogs. I finally got Wi-Fi in my house after about 6 years of just using mobile data. Don’t ask me how I did it because I don’t know, I feel like I couldn’t live without it now. Getting the Wi-Fi led me to being able to access more YouTube videos and I eventually found Vlogs. I love them. I love looking round people’s houses, seeing what clothes they wear and what food they are eating. I like to hear about the average everyday things they do and where their jobs/careers take them. It’s mundane sometimes but I am hooked! I thought about Vlogging. I actually talked about it with Jakki; I practised Vlogging when we were making a brew one day. I seriously think I could do it and would love to. However, there are two issues with that. One, I would want to do it properly with the right camera, all the equipment and editing software. At the moment I don’t have the budget for that stuff and wouldn’t know how to use it! Two, I can’t edit. I wouldn’t know where to start. I struggle now to edit photographs on my phone for my Instagram! So blogging it is. I can type and use Microsoft Word by myself and that’s good enough for me! I do occasionally ask my very clever teacher friend to proofread things for me. She has proofread this so I’m not taking responsibility for any mistakes.

We have established I am turning 30, I like reading and I like Vlogs. Well there is a bit more. I am also blogging for another reason. A big reason and possibly the most important one. I am a mum. I’m a special kind of mum though; I think the technical term is bereaved mother. This is something I will go into more detail with another time. But there it is. I have been on an incredible journey for 6 years and I have finally got into a place that I feel most comfortable with. I am happy and I never thought I would be able to say that with such conviction, but it’s true and I want to share with you how I have got there and how I work hard every day to stay happy and keep smiling. If my words can help or bring comfort to anyone out there with similar circumstances than my work here is done. You are not alone. I am not alone. I will be using this blog as an emotional outlet at times and I’m ok with that. I have all these thoughts and feelings that are in my head and sometimes I feel I have no way to express them, but maybe with this blog I will have a safe space to do that. One of the reasons I am not ok with turning the big 3 0 is because of Isaac. That’s my son’s name. I am constantly thinking about the fact that I’m not at where I thought I was going to be at this point in my life. I am trying to come to terms with that and admit that it’s going to be ok.

One more thing about me before I go… I mentioned I am moving in with my best friend, well she is moving in with me. Jakki is my right hand woman. I have a spare room and we are going for it! We have been decorating it for the last few weeks and its coming on a treat. The carpet got fitted today and it now looks like a bedroom rather than the storage room it was. I am so excited for the next few months; I just know we are going to have such a laugh. I will keep you updated!

I guess this is my first blog. It’s a bit of an introduction really as to why I am doing this. Hope you enjoy reading more about my life and if not I am sure you will just have a laugh at some of the things I will be getting up to.

Thanks for reading.

Kim