You are now 6. I can not believe it has been 6 years since I gave you your last kiss and said goodbye. I so wish things were different for us. I would give anything to have you here now and to be able to tell you to your face that ‘I love you’.
I often wonder what you would be like now. Would you be a little boy who likes sport? Would I be buying you a football kit for your birthday? Would you like games? Or an iPad? Or would you be into your books like me? Harry Potter? Or Star Wars? The Avengers?
There are so many questions that I’ll never have the answers to. But I’m OK with that as long as you don’t ever have to question my love for you or how much I miss you. I’ll tell you every day, some how, some way, that you will always be in my heart. I will keep you there for the rest of my life and take you with me wherever I go. I will live this life for the both of us and I will try every day to make you proud.
I hope you had an amazing birthday son. I had chocolate cake and took a balloon to your grave. I hope you like it.
You will forever be my always.